#05 - Slight Video Delay and Springtime - 12/05/2025
I am comfortably tired today.
It's been nice - while I had originally meant to get A Comprehensive Breakdown of SAPARi.mil done and released today, I instead spent time over at my siblings's place. I'll most likely have that album breakdown done around the 13th or so, as I want to give it a nice bit of TLC, clean it up a bit, refine it. I spent some time cutting down parts of the end section as, after musing on it a bit, I found that part of the video ill-fitting, so it's removed. However, the fun surprise at the end has been comfortably changed to be even better I feel. Sometimes, the choices you make that feel like leaps of faith are the choices that matter more than anything.
Im honestly quite glad that I changed my plans for today and visited siblings at their home. Visiting there always injects a lot of joy into my day, it's nice to catch up with family that I treasure deeply, and it's really nice just being able to see what I've missed over there in the time I spend away from their presence. I aspire to be a lot like them. It's thanks to positive influences like them that I can appreciate the little things more; the warmth of the sun, the breeze midday, how everything gets so beautifully illuminated in pure rays of solar gold when the sun sets, the flowers that sway with every bit of air that bakes the day and cools the night, the walks from local shops with siblings and the fun banter that makes conversation sacred and fufilling. The latter especially is like food for my soul, comfort for my heart. And to be surrounded by so much blossoming nature just heals me. I love nature so much. Growing older is realising how beautiful the world can be if you just allow yourself to slow down and appreciate the world for what it is, down to the brass tacks. There's a fine balance to being so oriented towards using tech to express my hobbies or work on projects, but then the true breaks from it are the moments I have on days like today, where I feel so content with myself. I don't hate technology, but I think a fine balance of technology and nature is best for someone who wants to make things, make content, the like.
I used to dislike spring and summer a lot when I was younger, partially because my way of escapism involved playing games, so you can imagine the ire I felt at being dragged away from such things. But nowadays, games are less so escapism and more like the equivalent of a cool breeze on a hot day. Although personally? I hope to have more days where I bask in the sun.
It makes so much of a positive difference to me.