#06 - Back to Dream Emulator Recording, and Some Hopes - 14/05/2025
I feel kind of just...exhausted today. For a few reasons, honestly. I haven't felt particularly well, or great, but sometimes there are just days like this where I don't feel good under any circumstances. I can't pinpoint why it's like that though specifically, which bothers me. Some days, I just wake up and I feel wrong, and I don't get why.
So I get to distracting myself with something productive.
I've gotten back to getting footage for the video I want to do on LSD Dream Emulator - I won't lie, I felt really, really uncertain at first when I started playing. I have this specific plan when it comes to the days and I was starting to question whether it was worth it, whether it was worth it to even get footage of the entire 365 total days, but then some REALLY interesting stuff began to happen where the game straight started inverting and collapsing in on itself, textures going mad, days ending in an instant, straight up corruption. There's something deeply haunting about that to me, to see these familiar locations get warped by what's clearly some kind of stress the game is under. But at the same time, it's strengthened my original plan, so I'm quite pleased with it and I'm up to day 125 so far. I think that at the pace I'm going, I could realistically be at day 200 in less than a week, but it depends. I'm not made to sit in one place, or I lack the patience to sit still. Wonder what that's indicative of /j
But i'm pleased with myself for that, and there's some priceless messages I can use as fun fodder for the whole video. I think with the way things are going, this LSD Dream Emulator video should be about an hour at max, 45 minutes at minimum. But there's enough footage, I feel, that I'll be able to make at least another video out of this - or perhaps I can split this LSD Dream Emulator video into two parts? It depends. I think that this game is very futureproof in that it may never stop truly being interesting. For me, I'm endlessly fascinated by it's nature and the circumstances of it's mystique, and how it seemingly exists in a point in time where games werent necessarily exploring the idea of simulating a concept just yet. Sure, games have always been fun for narratives and there's countless point and click games proceeding it that explore certain themes and ideas, but it's just such an oddity. I'm considering not only doing a video on the current concept, but also something personal - my own personal experience with LSD Dream Emulator. Just a thought. Overall, i'm happy with progress on video preproduction. It's something currently making me happy.
Which leads into what else is on my mind: hopes. I have hopes for things from here. I hope that I'm able to keep making videos that people enjoy, that I upmost enjoy, that I could really thrive off of this stuff, that the sapari album breakdown video does well, etc. I could do with some positives atm.
Tired.