#09 - A Chaotic Week, LSD Dream Emulator Playthrough, Deltarune Incoming, Rain - 24/05/2025
To say I've had an absolutely chaotic week is an understatement. From the fact that I just kind of missed when I actually wanted to make another blog post, to the fact that only NOW i've gotten back to it, I've been all over the place. Genuinely all over the place. Not in a good way much, either. I don't feel comfortable going into detail about all of it currently, so, I hope that when i'm in better circumstances, I can talk about it without feeling strained by it. All i'll say is that i'm just feeling a lot more hopeful, I hope to REMAIN hopeful. I'm tired of feeling so tired. It really sucks when the place you're supposed to be happy at is instead the source of your misery. But it won't be forever.
On more positive news, I've gotten back to doing my playthrough on LSD Dream Emulator, going from day 176 to 200. It's funny to be honest, from the fact that I was away from the game for about a week and a half approximately, the game really threw out some bizarre stuff for the play session I had before. But in that time, i've kept up with ongoing discussion within the osamu sato discord community and there's a LOT of interesting data within the place about LSD and it's specific internal mechanics. I'm honestly astonished by how there's so much to it, how there's so much that even I didnt know despite having experience with the game across these long past ten years. For example, the circle button is utterly useless for the most part within the game...EXCEPT for some specific objects and events at SPECIFIC intervals at SPECIFIC areas within the dream world. It's utterly mad how there's so much i'm still learning about even now, but the data that members of the sato community have dug up and learned about the graph and how the dreams actually work is amazing. There's a whole complex algorithm within the game that people both understand and dont, and there's so much variables within the whole game that make the experience completely random. I am honestly fascinated by it, and I feel that there will at least be some mention of it in the actual video project I intend to do with the game.
Speaking of video projects: Deltarune. Oh boy~
IM EXCITED FOR CHAPTERS 3 AND 4 SO MUCH MAN. SO FREAKING EXCITED!!! But as a result of that, I have a lot of plans for videos I wanna make with it. The first is a small video about documenting the end of the countdown on the deltarune.com website, as it's good to have it for archival reasons and I feel maybe it could help other content creators or essayists if they need that kind of footage, the one of a kind footage that probably won't ever exist again. Then there's the game's release: i'm going to be upload my playthrough of chapter 3 and chapter 4 to the channel! I want to do that for archival reasons, but also so that when I work on the eventual chapter 3 and 4 fandom retrospective video in the future, i'll have that footage on hand. The one thing that I'm sort of considering is that I want to do a small, 30 minute or so video on my thoughts about chapter 3 and 4, mainly as another archival choice but also because it would be kind of nice to express my optimism or thoughts about things as they are within the timeframe that is the deltarune chapters release window. I want to think smart and passionately about my channel, and it would be nice to introduce some deltarune fans to the kind of stuff I love to do on my channel: comfy video essays and archival stuff, but mainly the video essays.
To be honest, all of this is mainly a response to the fact that I am deeply excited for these new chapters. My thoughts from Deltarune Means Everything to Me have not changed that much, but the excitement only grows more and more as each day passes. I feel kind of ancient in a sense in that there's so much discussion of these chapters, just like when chapter 2 got revealed, but the reception and the talk just seems to be MORE this time around. It really makes me think that other than the fact that this chapter 2 era is rapidly coming to an end, there's a whole new era of the game arriving soon and i'm here for the ride. Not complaining about that at all hehe, i'm all for it! I met so many interesting people just from the chapter 1/survey program demo days alone, people I still talk to now, so imagine all the interesting folks who are gonna hop on and only show the fandom more as the creative place it is? Stuff like this makes me really happy.
I havent really been keeping up with some of the more speculative details around the game, like that of the sweepstakes or all of the ARG stuff. I do keep up with it, but, I tend to be late to the party by my own choice. I find it a bit stifling to try and wade through the sea of information at times, especially if there's an onslaught of theories and ideas and fanwork around it. I process it all one at a time, which feels best for me. I absolutely love what comes from all of these theories and the ARG-esque parts of the game's lore and story, though. Creativity is something I deeply cherish for a game like this - it's so nice to see people just making beautiful things out of an already beautiful game. I love it, yknow?
The last thing that's really on my mind is that after all of this chaotic week, after all of this scorching sun...
There's rain. I'm glad, honestly. There's something soothing about the downpour of rain and the pitter patter of raindrops against hard concrete outside. After what felt like the day from hell yesterday, the night ending with the downpouring of rain felt right honestly. Used to hate rain as a kid, but nowadays I see it as the weather that washes away the stress of previous days, to make way for better things to come. I really hope, really really hope, that things remain peaceful from here.
Peace surely isn't difficult to attain, right?