#31 - Fantastic News, Stressful Evening - 18/10/2025
God, I keep forgetting to write entries, it's so strange; like, I keep meaning to write in here but I legitimately keep forgetting and before I know it, October is passing by crazy quick. Im not complaining though, since it's been one hell of a month with good and bad included. But, I can say that there's some real good on the horizon again!
I'll be employed once more starting this monday! Im really fucking happy about that honestly, because it means I'll finally have a wage again and i'll be out there doing some good for the world. Im keeping myself tempered with it since, well, I was with my previous employer for...a month, and then they axed me falsely. So I REALLY want to make this last, I really want to make this last for more than a month and I really hope I can make it stick. But god, to know I'll be paid again and to know that i'm going out there doing some good in the world makes me happy. I'm deeply happy. Can't wait for training on monday/tuesday!
As for today's evening...fucking hell, where do I start?
So I attended a family gathering for my parent's partner's family, a big feast at an indian restaurant. Honestly, it's rare for me to actually go to a party of sorts, and almost never do I go to restaurants, but...I wish I could have enjoyed it more. To be honest, it was a bit of a middling experience. So lets detail it: so we get there around 7pm at night, and immediately off the bat, it's just incredibly overstimulating in a sensory way - imagine noise, coming from every angle, nonstop. I'm somewhat used to this when it comes to crowds or being around people like this, I mean, I DID have a charity job months ago. But it was incredibly overwhelming, and to be honest it was hard to think in there. Something I find deeply stressful is when people try to converse with me and I legitimately cannot hear them due to how fucking loud it is. Like, how do people think I can HEAR others in that? So anyway, I'm coping with that despite how overstimulated and increasingly stressed i'm becoming, when people I'm with are being incredibly rude about the waiting staff and making really racist accents that impersonate indian folks, alongside a ton of other politically incorrect comments, leaving me with second hand embarassment which only added to how uncomfortable I already was feeling. Adding to this is the fact that despite us getting into the place by 7pm, it took until 9:30pm at night for the food that I got alongside everyone else to arrive and...it wasn't anything special, despite being from a fairly luxurious restaurant. I got myself a biryani and it was...just really middling. Honestly, takeaway biryani legitimately tasted better and it just kind of sucks that for waiting over two hours, it wasnt worth waiting for. Thing is, I like eating with others and I quite like communal spaces, but not when im surrounded by yelling and loud talking and music blasted down my ears, alongside political incorrectness and really nasty comments being thrown around. It completely kills the fun for me.
Thankfully its over.
I was originally going to transition to talking about Dexter, as I recently finished season 8 and im very happy with my time watching it~ But, ill save that for it's own entry.