#37 - Birthday Retrospective, Satellites, Schedule - 13/12/2025
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, to be 25! It's interesting - i've been 25 for about two days now and to be honest, I already sort of feel older to be frank. I don't know how to describe it, but, I just DO feel older. I looked in the mirror yesterday, on the 12th, and I noticed just how broad my shoulders were, how older my face was and more defined it was, and just generally how I stand. I am a long way away from how I was five years ago. It's weird how different I am now. This year has also molded me into someone else entirely to be frank - any semblance of the too overtly relaxed attitude I had about life, at the start of the year, is GONE. Still, i'm alright. So lets talk about how Birthday Number 25 went.
It started off very nice! I spent midnight with my two gorgeous partners and one of their sisters, which was really nice. We've been playing through Beyond R: Rule Ripper lately and we've been incredibly hooked - I love the feeling of being invested in a very good story. But anyway, that's how it begins, and I also get an art gift from a good friend too. I get a lot of happy messages, happy wishes, and with my siblings visiting earlier, I also get some really cute knick knacks. My mother also gave me a few of those in the morning of the 11th, and, then, I headed out to a town in the region via my sister's partner's car and I followed the latter and my sister around town for a good few hours, mainly just drinking maple and sea salt lattes at a really cute local cafe and watching them both intensely play 4 matches of the One Piece trading card game. Honestly, that game is incredibly fun to watch and I want to try it for myself sometime since it's mechanics are deeply interesting. Watching my sister adapt to the kind of tactics her partner played with his deck and seeing her triumph over the different kind of hurdles, it was really interesting and generally, we then went to a few places within the local mall too. Honestly, it was a nostalgic time out with the pair of them and it reminded me of that one day I had after work, back in the summer when I had my first job and had that expendable money - that day in which I was out until midnight with them, feeling like that day was endless and comforting. This time with them on my birthday felt the same.
To be honest, the rest of the day when I got back to where I live was basically assembling a monstrous bowl of nachos, plus drinking irn bru and smirnoff and quickly becoming drunk while spending my night in xem92's twitch chat. It was, to be honest, quite the cosy birthday.
I do wish that it had been entirely peaceful. Unfortunately, the usual suspects back here decided to have another argument at random, making the atmosphere tense which didnt help given that I was drunk out of my mind. So the ebbing, nervousless experience it should have been quickly became anxiety pilled up alongside not feeling like I was fully lucid. Then there was another thing. I don't want to mention what it was, but it was too much to handle in my lack-of-lucidity. Fortunately I've found a solution to that issue, but, still, jesus. Anyway, all that aside, good birthday! Probably going to get drunk again soon.
Around the time of my birthday, I released the album that i'd been cooking up for over a year and a half: Satellites! With art on the cover courtesy of the fantastic cyybells_, I spent a year learning FL Studio, after moving on from LMMS and deciding to try and learn a new platform that could give me more freedom to experiment. Satellites came about from that experimentation, it being an album made up of tracks that are inspired by things I like, such as super monkey ball, timesplitters 2, etc. I am honestly very happy with this album, and I am very happy with how it's turned out. I have no idea what I intend to do from here, but I generally feel like I am satisfied with the general outcome of what I made. I always love being able to just make something new and something that is ultimately better than what I have made before. I have some early ideas for what I intend to do for the next release, but I am not sure if I will go in that direction. The album's up on bandcamp and on youtube now~
The last thing to discuss, my schedule upcoming. Its my intent to just generally work towards christmas, so I intend to get all linework for the three comms i've got left done before and then render as much as possible, before leaving them for christmas till the start of the new year. I want to give myself a break with art, and let myself have time to do fun things I want to do. The next crt dreams will also be aimed for before christmas as well, and ill be closing comms soon just temporarily, reopening once my current comms are done and dusted. Music making will take another small break, and ill probably just write whenever I feel like it in terms of fanfics. Philanthropy volume 2 will be my next big writing thing once the nea year comes around~
Busy busy busy~