#42 - Snow and Instant Irish Coffee - 05/01/2026
Five days in and i'd say that January is proving to be an interesting month so far.
I've been mainly just getting footage for the TWOC video for the past few days but during all of that...it snowed here! Yeah, believe it or not, snow began to fall lately. And I gotta say, despite my reservations about the cold season, snow is still something that makes my heart feel all warm and fuzzy. I'm not sure what it is, but it brings back good memories, instills a sense of warmth in the place I reside in as I look at my window and see the clumps of snow fall. All of a sudden, this bland, dull place I live around is transformed by a blanket of crisp white snow, the clumps and clusters of the stuff sticking to everything in sight and making everything shimmer and shine against the quick sunsets. There's something so deeply pretty about the blood-orange tones of sunset at 3 to 4pm here reflecting onto the pearl-white snow everywhere, making the surroundings light up and glow. I've been finding excuses to go out briefly today and the past day or so, just to feel the cold on my lungs and the way the freezing air prickles against my reddening ears. Hell, even just touching the snow, that crumbling texture to it is just comfortable. I like walking out in the snow and going around places, sort of puts me in the headspace of being alone for a time; I like being alone on my way to places like shops or whatnot, especially in this weather or general cold weather, as it makes me mentally get into the headspace of "ohhh, this is what it would be like if i lived on my own!". It's sappy and corny but, it helps me get back to a neutral state if im, for example, not doing too great. And snow makes that process even better. Snow makes boring, depressing places more interesting, nicer, and I like that. I honestly hope it keeps snowing, because while it's inconvenient for the most part when it comes to travel...im uh, not travelling anywhere right now. I'm sat indoors keeping warm, sipping sachets of instant irish coffee to jolt my body awake.
This stuff is really nice. Funnily enough, I only started drinking this stuff because I got it in a month or so ago when I was watching my partners play a game called beyond r: rule ripper. The game is fucking fantastic by the way, but aside from that, every character in that game is named after something you'd find within a bar setting. So there's a character called poker, one called billiards, cigar, coffee, etc. And coffee, specifically irish coffee, is the name of that particular character or the reference of sorts. Trying this stuff for the first time, I was impressed at how weirdly bitter but sweet it is, and while I found myself sort of abandoning those sachets for a time, coming back to them lately to give myself a boost while I play through TWOC has made me appreciate their unique flavour. I know it's not THE real flavour, I mean, it's an instant sachet for a reason, but it makes me want to try the very real thing. I like it when video games encourage me or get me to try new things. Ill admit that I'm very standoff-ish about new experiences, but give me time, and ill thaw like ice. Or is snow the more appropriate comparison here?
You be the judge haha. Honestly, I'm writing this blogpost as I'm having a rest day from things, due to getting a comm done and generally just being quite tired. Even with my productivity, I must treat myself with kindness. I'm not a machine, even if I want to be as productive accordingly. Even settling down to watch movies with friends, like the muppets movie (which I saw for the first time last night and it was an absolute banger, I love it <3), is being kind to myself. So I will continue to be kind to myself. There's only one of me, after all.