#48 - Spring is Upon Us, Tinkering - 23/03/2026
I feel like it's particularly unusual to write one of these in the middle of the day. I prefer posting at night to be honest; I prefer it because the safety of the darkness and the end of the current day is a nice segway into sleep as I write whatever I feel like writing. Alas, I'm writing now though. Today has been insofar productive, but i'm currently resting. I woke up at 6:50am, groggy and out of my mind as my head was pounding (and still slighly, ever so slightly so) with a vicious headache, one that made me yank myself out of my bedcovers and into grasping one paracetamol tablet and refilling my flask of water. But it was...nice, too, because I got to see the sunrise.
My eyes were still processing the waking world while glimpsing it but seeing the hills glow with a rich orange hue, clouds blanketed across the lilac sky, all the houses in the valley a grey hue from their lights all being off, was genuinely beautiful. I do not consider myself particularly superstitious, but I believe some things happen for a reason and I wonder if my groggy and slightly ill(?) nature at the moment was meant to lead me to starting my week with a beautiful sight. After the kind of hectic week that i've had previously and this whole month, honestly, I needed something like this. Nature is beautiful, and I love it to be frank with you. But I stood there for a good minute, drinking in the sight, watching the world begin to rustle from sleep at the archaic time I was awake for. Previously, I had stayed at my father's flat for a few days and I was able to get some headspace for some time, away from the usual chaos. It honestly helped, and I've come back a calmer and less stressed man subsequently. But standing there and seeing that kind of beautiful sight in the morning, the world at a standstill and drenched in orange hues? Lovely. And it reminded me of the peace I had lately. Given the fact that spring began just a few days ago for us brits, it's a good omen, and makes me feel like something good is coming too. Im not sure what exactly, but I just feel that something good is on the way.
I just hope that whatever's affecting me today passes. I assume, based off of how groggy i feel and the fact that I feel sluggish, that it's some extreme form of hayfever, but I'm worried it may be something else. Time will tell, but the pain in my body ebbs now and then so I guess i'm also just exhausted. I did have 3 days of mostly-peace (emphasis on the mostly) when I was at my father's place, and I did come back to a while-currently-calm-"home". I assume something will occur at somepoint but I'm not betting on it. All that matters is that I aim towards my own goals.
On that note, I've been tinkering. The carrd I've been working on for my commissions, once they reopen soon enough, is basically complete and I'm doing tweaks. It will finally fill the empty slot at the front of the blog for my comms! I'm 85 percent done with the next crt dreams, about flash games, and it's basically putting patchblob's sprites on the editing timeline + more advanced tweaks and edits to the currently progress, THEN the final section and making a thumbnail, and we're sorted! Musicwise, I haven't been up to much lately, but I am tinkering here and there. And I have a plethora of fanfic ideas, all of which I find particularly interesting and could make for some fun stories.
Dont have too much to say, other than that I feel motivation to keep at it, and that I can do this~