#63 - Post-Mancfurs Experience and Feelings, Awaiting my ASD Report - 18/09/2026
Post-con depression sucks. Well, maybe not depression in this instance, but after Mancfurs, I feel this longing, this want, to go back. With the day itself being so lovely, even despite the cancellation of the parade, it just...makes me want more of it. Perhaps it's this general drive to be amongst kindred spirits, or people just generally more like me, I dunno, but I just want to be back there...and I've already been musing on how to provide even more alterations to patchblob-kigurumi mk1. I am happy with what I was able to make, but I am certainly not going to entirely stop at just that. Ill speak on that in a moment. But honestly, what I loved about Mancfurs was the fact that I was able to be less stressed, less strained, perhaps someone else for just a bit of time. I was able to make some new connections, people that if I keep in contact with, I can become great friends with. And the fact that it's so local was even better. But it was just...nice to be around people like me. That's the thing, its a sense of belonging and familiarity, a sense of community, I love that. I cant wait for the next one, but the wait from then to now will be a test of patience.
About the mask and costume, patchblob-kigurumi mk1, I am considering making some alterations in it's post-finished state. Something that a new friend, Fizz, said at the first Mancfurs has stuck with me, that maybe I can make alterations or even get neck-fluff for myself so that the illusion of being patchblob isnt broken. I like those ideas, and I've also been comparing the mask to patchblob's design as well - the three face tufts of fur are not there on the mask. So...why dont I try and add them? I am in the early stages of this, anyway, but, I want to try it and that probably means that I'll either do some glue-ing, or ill sew it. I'll figure it out~
The main thing aside from these prior two things, that's been on my mind, is my ASD Report. Since I got my diagnosis in mid-August, I've been awaiting the detailed diagnostic report and write-up of my condition. There's a few reasons that I want this report: the first is so that I can actually have the details of how they've assessed me. The second is that I want is so that certain sectors can finally lay off of me in terms of how they peck around. And the third is for closure. I want to get closure on the whole thing and know what I can do next. Would also be useful so people who continue to deliberately not take my needs into account can now be unable to deny it any further.
Overall, life is chaotic still. Still trying to get by. But im still going to keep going.
That's my aim.