#65 - Cold Nights - 22/10/2026
It's been quite cold lately.
But am I complaining? Ha! No. Actually, I quite like this. As the month has gotten colder and the sunlight seems to be getting lesser and lesser, even with it being quite warm at times, I'm finding myself getting very comfortable. I really enjoy this part of the month - i've been busy; the CRT Dreams video about my comic-con experience this past summer, commissions (all of which I aim to get done before the year itself ends, preferably before my birthday honestly), and my yearly deltarune anniversary piece per every October since 2019. I am quite busy, and this also includes preparing for my induction for the counselling course I wish to pursue since HOORAY, i'm in! I'll have it on the 2nd, then, if all goes well, I start my course on the 11th~! A mix of online and offline, it is, but I am really eager to see how I fare here and making sure that I can progress forward. If I do, then, it means I can move forward, which means another step towards the ultimate goal: a job in this field, helping others, earning from it, and getting out of my current circumstances by being able to afford a lovely little place of my own. I feel that it's more possible than ever, and I damn well will work towards that goal. I want to live somewhere comfy and have my own place, to be able to just choose how I live on my own terms. And it will happen~
In terms of the cold, getting back to what I was originally saying, it's nights like these that remind me of how far I've come, where I will continue to go, and what I intend to do. The cold hits my lungs, and I'm reminded of nights from long ago. But ultimately, I am happy with my progress, and it's only going up from here. Hell, I'm even looking forward to my birthday in two or so months, which is weird to think about in a way since the past two birthdays ive had were underlined by how I was upset due to the people that I had lived with - even on a special day like that, the people I lived with just...did not let me have a good time, which sucks. However, i'm no longer within that environment, nor does the past influence me much, so while I am not in the most ideal of circumstances, I am well on my way to a much happier birthday this year. And I have hope, and faith.
At some point, I should go get myself a can of cola, or just some fizzy pop anyway, just to vibe and enjoy the cold. It's nice, that this entire temperature, reminds me of these quaint little moments from the past. But I dont think on the past too much, per se. It's just fleeting now, and not too important to think on.
I'm feeling happy. May the cold nights ahead be comfortable, and snug <3